What would you do differently if you were given chance to live again, grow again?
Probably choose Art. Read. Be more organised with yourself than with the world. Explore your emotions and you can do that still. All this anxiety about what is going to happening because you are not creating life, you are just living the presentation. Passivity has you in bounds and you yourself want to get out of these vicious loops. Looking yourself from someone else's perspective is unnatural. Things evolving out of something which is inorganic, will be rotten, prone to distortions. You yourself knew no bounds during childhood. Education is just giving words to your feelings, emotions and education never ends. Only education which happens is when you educate out of self realisation, not when something is forced down your throat. One should not let schooling get in the way of real education. You meet people who themselves have no idea about them, about their environment, about life and preach like the masters of the world. Money is a means. People don't know what to do with their time.
Kshitij, you have to take a step. You decide what you want to do with your time. You decide. Don't let anyone else decide for you.